I’m better than I used to be, but I still have a hell of a time getting a good night’s sleep. It often doesn’t take much to wake me up or sometimes even to keep me from getting into a solid, deep sleep in the first place. Staying asleep is generally a much bigger problem than getting there (I’m one of those who can go from completely awake to how did I miss the last 20 minutes of that show in what feels like a few seconds), but I’m finding that there’s one thing that has really started messing with my ability to nod off.
It never used to be a problem and I can’t pinpoint exactly when it became one, but for whatever reason now, if I brush my teeth right before bed I can pretty predictably add an extra hour or so to the amount of time I’m going to be awake. There’s something about my mouth being all tingly fresh that convinces my brain that I must be going somewhere or that someone is coming here and I have to be ready, even though I’m tired, wearing what I sleep in and have crawled into bed.
She hasn’t come out and said it, but I have a fairly clear sense that Carin thinks I’m kind of fuckity doo here. Even I wonder if she may be on to something, because like I said, I did this for most of my life without it being a problem. So if maybe somebody could tell me “yeah, I do that too” or call me an alien and ask me which backward ass planet I came from, that would be nice.